One of my favorite scriptures is Psalm 81:10 where it states:
“I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of the land of Egypt. Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it.”
I love this scripture because Egypt is not just a place geographically, but it can be figuratively applied as a state of mind or a spiritual place of conflict. Either way, God says HE BROUGHT you out of that sunken place. As a direct result of your deliverance from that place, He opens your mouth WIDE. That means, He makes room for the abundance to flow through you as He provides the text, utterance, language, understanding, boldness, fortitude, strength, revelation… I can go on and on. But God is the one who does both the deliverance and the deliverer. You become the vessel of honor He delivers FROM your previous state into a deliverer of a message from Him. Selah!
Which brings me to the thought that my Egypt has been a whole lot of things from the tangible to the intangible.
Tangible is debt = I hate debt because the Bible tells me that the one who borrows is a slave to the lender (Proverbs 22:7). Nevertheless, Romans 13:7 says I should pay whatever I owe to whomever I owe it to whether that is honor, revenue, or respect. Depending upon the circumstances, this can be hard or seamless.
Then there is the intangible Egypt where I mostly struggle with feeling like my wings to soar and BE all that God wants from me is hampered by others’ expectations. Even sometimes my Big G. Oh how I wish my brother, my spouse, my Big G could understand how I see myself in this world. At times Big G does get me and then there are other times Big G is baffled by the complexities of who I am. And yep, it is the same vice versa.
I am learning that how I handle the tangible and intangible have long lasting residuals. Like it becomes a border where no life is continuing on the other side of it. Or a cleansing agent to heal past hurts and wounds for life to continue and flourish. The latter is what I desire but sometimes it is…well let’s just say this sista is struggling.
I have sister friends that will help me balance it out. I am in deep prayer and desire that Holy Spirit be my lead and guide. I do not want to live in misery and feel like life has passed me by because that is just existing. I want the more of ME. BEcome the woman that God wants me. To be in my rightful place. To be in my watchman position so that God is glorified through my life. To gain HIS kiss of approval on each step. This is indeed a tall order that I expect from self.
I heart check daily (purchase my book The Priesthood of the Dance to learn more about heart checks – www.kinArnold.com).
Know that your Egypt does not define you. Use it, as I am doing mine, as a launching pad into a deeper love for God, self, Hubbie, family, and anything else you have on your list.
I am in sincere prayer that this Egypt experience will not be for long. I am looking forward to HIS deliverance of this experience into BEcoming a Deliverer of HIS messages.
Meditation: Psalm 81, Proverbs 22:7, Galatians 6:7, Psalm 139:7-10, Mark 1:12, Romans 8:14